One of my greatest fears

Is being taken advantage of.

It makes me very defensive. Because I hate to feel like someone is playing me. Thinking they have gotten the best of me. They can just take advantage of me and think I will always be here..........waiting............or taking crap.

And I can snap. I have walked away from serious relationships without looking back. I have walked past people and never bat an eye or look in their face like they never existed in my life. I am very very good at protecting myself.

The problem is.... its premeditated protection. Like Ill get you before you get me. Or I will lash out real quick.

dang I sound mean.  But I am really not.

I have to trust my intuition more.  I have to trust my spirit more. I have to trust those quiet times that allow me to feel  what's really going on. My intuition has proved to be right more times than not.