41 posts from August 2008

People who drift into the next lane. No signal, not even any speed.  They just decide they will "drift" into the open space. 

It burns me up.  Happened this morning and of course two people almost crashed.  Because one person driving with speen using a signal is changing lanes and here comes the next person, just drifting.  Then they have to break swerve move back into their own lane.

I was taught to own the move I make. If I am going to switch lanes make it happen.  Don't take to long to think about it.  Just do it.  Drifting is assuming that no one else is coming and you can just move into that space that happens to be open at the moment.   It burns me.

Ok vent over.

So I took a spinning class for the first time yesterday.

I have been avoiding it because A: I knew it would be a challenge, and B: Riding a bike is boring to me.

But my regular class was cancelled because some kids decided to bust a sprinkler pipe with one of the medicine balls and it flooded out the child center and a studio.  How do I know` this? They caught them jokers on video.  Estimated damage: 30k.  There are some extremely angry parents in the North side of Atlanta.

Anyway. Spinning.

Actually was not that bad. The worst part? That dag seat!!!!! It was not comfortable at all! It made the whole hour pretty rough.  Urgh!!!!  They make bike pants that have a little padding in the seat area.   I may invest because spinning was not bad. And I like the way my body feels today.  I feel muscles that I dont normally feel.  I like that!  I give Lance a lot more credit.

So at church yesterday it was a powerful sermon.  But for the purposes of this blog, I want to share one point.

The preacher talked about being stingy and if your stingy you won't get anything. And he mentioned stingy with your feelings.

I never considered myself stingy with my feelings.  I often give feelings to people who don't even hardly deserve it and thats probably why I have been hurt.  I don't blame the other person, I look to myself for making the decision I did.

But I know since the death of my mother, and other significant losses in a one year time frame, I closed myself up.  I stopped speaking to one of my closest friends. I didn't allow myself to meet new people in a new state where I planned to make a new life for myself. I let some new friends go. It felt so much safer to do that.  I became stingy with my feelings.

But yesterday I realized that how can I expect anyone to open up to me, if I don't open up to them.  I often don't seek help, advice, or even just an ear to listen to me grip about serious stuff.  I deal with everything on my own.   

Its funny I started to use this blog to say some stuff because it feels safe. Like maybe someone will know maybe someone won't. But to me there has always been a safety in writing my feelings down. Like I will write a letter or a email in a minute before I pick up the phone.  

Well the point of all this is to say. I'm really going to work on being open about my feelings. Seeking advise and help and opening myself so that my friends will open themselves to me.   And not just a email or a blog. But picking up the phone and sitting down face to face.

Sucks.

Hearing your friend say "you look smaller," Great.

Getting on the scale. Sucks

Knowing my cruise is in three weeks.  Great.

Knowing I have to fit into certain clothes and this whole weight loss thing sucks,  Double Sucks.

The dance of Brazil and I am attempting to learn it in my Latin Fusion class at the gym. I say attempting because its not so easy. 

An example

And this is one of my favorite songs to dance Samba too.  Talk about a work out.

I just found out that my cruise ship has an adult only pool!!!!

Oh boy I am excited. 

I often do not do the pool thing with kids because well, they are kids.  Sad thing is adults could be just as freakin nasty. But I wont think that way. 

Now I have to check if it has a slide! Yay boyeeeeeee!!! 

ETA: That bad boy has a slide!!!! 

You should start a blog toooooo!!!

I want to know what you're thinking.  ;)

Boo-yah!

So whenever someone at work has an anniversay they get a ginourmous vanilla and chocolate cake that last most of the day.

I myself refused to partake.

Didn't even want to get close enough to take a picture. 

My focus: the gym for my dance class this evening!!! yay baby!!!

And have to ask yourself, "why am I playing myself?"

I hate that crap.
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