14 posts from December 2008

And I am sick. I am very thankful though because I do not get sick often. And if I do get sick I fight through pretty quick and easy.

Not this time though. Had to end up at the doctor's office. The last time that happened it was circa 2003.

So i have a ear/sinus infection so the left side of my face is jacked. Even my eye is red. Not a pretty picture to enter in the new year with.

But I think I am some sort of weirdo.  I am very in tune with my body. So I am sitting here with my ear clooged up. And I feel it. I feel there is fluid in there and its just stuck.  When I was young my ear was clogged and I blew it out and ended up in the worst pain ever and in the ER.  So I have a great fear of blowing it out again.

But as I sit here all of a sudden I begin to feel a pressure in my ear. Like the fluid has built up so much with no where to go.  Doc said the inflamation has to go down. So its a waiting game.  But I hate sitting here going through every little motion in my ear.   

Nor sad blogs.

Have you evern been sad? I mean really sad where you walk around with a smile on your face, but inside there is no smile?

Have you every stood outside with your face pointed straight at the sun, but inisde your looking for a ray of light?

With this past election so many tears were shed with the hope of change.  Everyone focused on the change but something else also emerged and that was hope.

With the start of a new year, many of us make new goals and say this year is going to be better then the next.

My goal is no matter who the president is, no matter what day or what year it is, I am going to be the best possible me I can be. And I am not doing it for anyone but me.

Dont like it, kick rocks. <-----------------This is the new postitive me!

A day I can chill with my second family and eat.  Thats really it.

I cant wait for it to be done really. I am sick and that is not really helping matters AT ALL.  I can deal with a stuffy head but when my throat is sore it sucks big time.  So grinch I am, grinch I will be.

But I wish everyone a Happy Holidays for whatever you may celebrate!!!!

I am so not religious. I even run from the thought of it because I refuse to get caught up in it.  There are people who use religion to hurt other people so I refuse to fall into that trap. 

But I have decided for awhile now, to work on my spirituality. So the other day I was lying in bed and reading and for some reason an overwhelming feeling came over me.  I must admit that when I hear people say I trust no man only God I get skeptical about it. But I am the type to question everything. You can tell me the sky is blue and I need to know that for myself.  So because I cannot see God or some how prove the existence I often wonder.  Anyway what I began to think about is the human body and how it functions.  How the blood flows through our veins, how we go to sleep, how we wake up, how we eat and digest food. Just all the things, and I became amazed . Amazed at the function of the body and amazed at the power that created it. I actually started to cry because I never thought of it that deep.

I, for that moment, understood becoming quiet (which is often hard for my running mind) and marvel at the power of God. 

So I am talking to my dear friend and we talk about compliments. And I realized that if someone doesn't compliment you on something, it's not bad.  What people appreciate to offer a compliment on varies.   But a back handed compliment is just plain horrible. And not just a back handed compliment but one that uses "its not like."

For example:

Its not like you're fat.

It's not like you're stupid.

It's not like you're a bad cook.

And it's not like you're saying I am thin, I am smart and I am a great cook by phrasing it this way. And if you don't feel like I am any of those things don't sugar coat it with trying to make me feel better about not being in the "bad" range.  

Hot song as well!!!!!!

I like the mix on the Showtime Riddim! Sweet!!! Jamaica meh soon come! 

With this Adidas commercial. Number one the song is hot. Number two it reminds me of real parties I used to go to back in the day.  I want to have a party like that and play this song.  Being the geek I am I found the song in the original version and the original in pretty cool too!!!

This right here, is hilarious!!

Is New York Governor David Paterson.  For several reasons.  The main reason is because he is blind and he has not let it stop him from doing anything.  When I first met him I was so scared.  He is one of the nicest, funniest people I have met and had the pleasure of working for.  Even when I was off doing whatever it is I do, when I reached out to him for help, he was there and I will be forever grateful to him. 

Anyway I missed the SNL episode that depicted him.  When I first heard it I though "aww thats messed up." But I also know he can take a joke just as well as making them.  But I watched the video and I so feel him on what he is saying.  But you know what stood out to me as well.  Because he is blind, whenever he speaks its off the top of his head or well memorized.  The dude is dope.  Plus his wife's name is Michelle.  I mean it gets no better then that!

Than this:

Michael Ealy